Dear Scott Letter #2

My second letter for today, I thought I’d write it seeing as we haven’t been able to talk properly today and I’ll more than likely be in bed by the time you get back! – I’m tired at the moment, I blame it on this cold, but it is going.

It’s been a good and bad day, I got to speak to you on Skype first thing this morning which I didn’t expect to be able to do so that was really nice. I posted loads of new content on my online portfolio and turned my photos into products in our zazzle shop. But then things started to go downhill a bit, my cold got really bad and was making me feel really exhausted. I got an e-mail from my boss and I have definitely got the time off that you are staying and she has done my reference for the PGL job I have applied for, I just need my other two reference to get handed back and then I will find out if I’ve got any further with it and if they will or won’t offer me the job/ apprenticeship (but with me it’s more likely that they won’t because I usually get turned down with these things). We didn’t get to talk tonight, again, but it wasn’t your fault – hopefully we’ll get a proper conversation tomorrow. I’ve been feeling really down this evening, I don’t know why, everything has just really got to me. I need a cuddle and one of our talks.

I’m not looking forward to college tomorrow, especially ICT but I have managed to struggle my way through my Business essay… I don’t think I’ve got a decent grade on it though!

I’m so glad that we will definitely be spending new year together now! Work has confirmed my holiday so that we will have nearly a week together…. It won’t be long enough, it never is! I hate it when we have to say goodbye but when we see each other the first time after being apart for so long it’s amazing, when I first see you’re face and you pull me close to you it’s the best feeling in the world!

I’m so glad that we are engaged now, we’ve talked about it and talked about it but to finally actually be engaged is incredible! It’s so hard to explain how happy you make me and to know that the rest of my life will be with you is the best feeling I could ever have.

I walked down to our bridge today, it was weird going for that walk on my own but it felt good to be able to think back on all the memories we have and everything we have been through. It’ll be good to go down there again when you stay at new year we didn’t go on one of our walks when you were here for my 18th, so we definitely need to go on one at new year.

I also went down and took some photos of the church, some of them look pretty good but others came out a little bit blurry. I ended up coming home sooner than I wanted to because it was so cold.

There is so many things I want to write here but I don’t know how to say them.

I’ve put loads of stuff into our scrapbook, I’m making a page about your two nicknames (panda and teddy bear) and how you got them.

I hope your interview has gone well this evening, I know whatever the outcome you will have tried your best. – It’s the 1st December tomorrow which means you can start you advent calendar I got you (if you haven’t already eaten the chocolate out of it!) We should have a special advent calendar to countdown until we see each other.

I want to write more, well really I’d rather we were actually together right now, but it’s not long until we are, I just need to be patient (I just don’t want to be, I want you here right now!).

I love you, SJ xxxxxxxx

_{PS. Only 26 days until we’re together (27th December)}

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